Ok. I was told to start from the beginning. I will. Please note that this is long, and if you leave a comment do not bullshit me.
First Wednesday in February. It's day 3 of Tafe, and I first come into contact with Mel. First impression was like any guys when he sees a new chick; "finally, someone I can flirt with :D". She comes over to us (those who were playing Worms: Armageddon), sits down and we're acting all chummy. Gamers tend to conglomerate around a common spot if there is a game on lol. We go back up to class, and I get told about a happening on the weekend. Was a movie (Tenacious D and The Pick of Destiny) and a few hours at a LAN centre (which is what me and my High School mates used to do). invite a few people, Mel is the only one to accept.
Friday night. We go to the movies, I asked to borrow the car from mum seeing as I was trying to impress Mel at this point (yeah, I have weird ways of interacting with chicks I would have liked to date). We go to the movie, and at some points in the movie where it was deemed appropriate I would lean my hand on hers (as you do xP). Movie was fucking awesome, and the LAN centre was even better. I can't play Counter Strike. Don't have the response time to play FPS; so each I died I would touch Mel; either through playful punch or other means. Each time she died I would give her a hug. Then we played DotA (Defence of the Ancients, look it up if you would like to know more) - standard RTS game, which Mel had never played before. Was cool cause I got some more friendly hugging and stuff out of it. After it ended, we went outside in the parking lot, stood about 3metres from each other before we said goodnight. She gave me a hug I will never forget - it showed friendship and caring. Went home, and we talked about random shit on msn that night. I guess this was the turning point in a mere liking towards her, but a want to go out with her properly.
The next two weeks at Tafe was pretty cool. Got to be better friends with Mel and a few other people. Get a one night job offer at Adventure World, for both me and Mel. It worked out perfectly cause my mate was holding his 18th afterwards, so of course Mel and I went to both. This was the 22nd of February now. I will remember this weekend for all time. After the job finished, went to my mates and got drunk. First time ever. Was so happy :D. Around 6pm we left for my place, got through the front door and went into my bedroom. i put on a movie and we watched it together (can't remember this one). Put another movie on, Open Season (the animated movie about a bear and a deer). I managed to pull Mel down to lie next to me, and I kissed her lightly on her neck. She didn't say stop, but she enjoyed it so much I had to do it again. And again. Slowly working my way down her body until I was kissing and touching her torso and back. Slowly I removed her 3 shirts, bra, pants, and underwear. All the while I was thinking, holy shit I can't believe I'm doing this, because I knew she had a boyfriend. But I kept going because she didn't say stop and I didn't want to. 1.5hrs after that kiss, we lay back on the bed after sex. It was ownage. First sex in 4years and I lasted like 20mins. Dunno how that compares to other people but I think it's pretty long. All of a sudden the door starts getting bashed on - Mel's mum called to find out where she was. She was "drunk" (best excuse ever) and was going to sleep at my house. it took 60seconds to put clothes on to open the door x__x lol. After that phone call, we did it again. Got as bed in, and I decided to crash on that. Mel rolled down from my King single and slept with me. In the morning, we did it twice more, showered together, and she went home around 3pm-ish.
And so began our fucking. We did it wherever we could - best spot was probably at Tafe itself, in the disabled toilets (ahh, some good times in that room let me tell you). Cold tiles on the wall means leaning against them was a bad thing, but it was fun all the same.
3 weeks later, on the 16th of March, I see Mel being walked to Tafe by her boyfriend. Omg I was so jealous of him right then. I wanted to be the one who would do that - and I told her in class that day. That weekend she spent with Glenn (her boyfriend at the time), and I spoke to her on Sunday and she said she broke up with him; the love ran out between her and him. Within 10mins of her telling me this, we were going out. She had no regret at the time for what she had done. We consequently spent the next 9days in each others company, as I was going away for 2 weeks to Melbourne for my final President Shield (President Shield is the top level bowling competetion in Australia available to Juniors).
While I was in Melbourne, I set myself a rule. No sex. In my eyes Sex was
the cheating act - anything else went. Consequently, I got a bit fresh with a few chicks - felt two dirrenet sets of tits while I was over there. My God they were nice tits, not as good as Mel's, but still ownage. Ahh, how easily I could have gone out with one or more of them - but I stayed true to Mel. I came back mid-April, can't remember the exact date, but it was a Sunday night. I saw Mel in the airport, and she looked hollow. Like all life had been extinguished from her. I didn't take notice of it at the time, I thought it was just tiredness. Spent a lot of time together in the next 2 weeks, saw movies, ate lunch, slept in each others beds, studied, she even came to bowling and watched me do the thing that had made my livelihood for the last 5 years.
On the 2nd or 3rd of May, Mel learned about the Perth Furries. She was so happy - apparently she had been looking for quite some time for this community. That Saturday was a thing called a "Fur Meet", and I was working. I wanted to go with her but I didn't cause it was out of the way by heaps >_>. Mel came over on Sunday after the meet - she looked troubled. Didn't go into it why. She stayed Sunday night, and left around 6:20pm Monday night cause I had work. I came home from work, and she told me: "I sorta hooked up at the Meet". I took little notice of it because that's what happens at parties. 2:30am Tuesday morning, I still hadn't slept, Curiosity got the better of me. I went through the MSN saved convos on my computer, and I discovered something which shocked me to the core. It was a complete description about the event between her and Jack (sorry I used your name but I think everyone knows). The exact contents of this conversation will stay private between Me, Mel, and the person who she told, but know that
everything was done between her and Jack. Oral sex, Normal sex, Pashing, everything. I wrote a letter to Mel, which asked one simple question: Do You Love Me? I never got an answer. The letter included snippets from this conversation, as well as the one where she told me she hooked up.
Tuesday, 8th May. I was a cold mother fucker that morning. I showed nothing towards Mel, absolutely nothing. I did one thing: loaded the letter on the computer, watched her start reading it, and walked out. i didn't know what I would have done. She tried to give me a hug, and I shut her down. For the next 2 weeks we talked. And talked. And sexed and talked. I couldn't trust her anymore at Fur Meets, so i went with her. That weekend, on Saturday night, was so cool. I walked in, and everyone I met was so friendly at someone new. Don't think Bast took a shine to me cause I was a smart-ass but thats who I am - Bast you really are an awesome guy hey. As long as I was in eye-range of Mel I was happy - but I went outside and told people why I was there - those people were Farf, Nathan, Vixen, and Raf. Mel overheard me boycotting her, and we spent that night driving home with me spilling out my thoughts of her flirting with guys. When we got back to her place, spend 15mins in the car hugging. Went upstairs to her place and slept together - she curled up in my arms. Since then, we have been on the rocks. It's been so stressing mentally - I think I lost 5kgs from not eating right. Felt good losing weight though xD.
Mel couldn't control her flirting with other guys. Each time she signed on MSN, got a phone message, or anything such as, she would flirt. And talk about sex. And flirt more. It sickened me. Watching your own girlfriend flirting and talking about sex with
other guys WHILE IN A RELATIONSHIP is the
WORST THING A GIRL CAN DO TO A GUY ASIDE FROM CHEATING. Next Fur meet, it became apparent that Mel didn't want me there. This was 100% confirmed at the last Fur Meet, when she said it to my face. When someone you love with all your heart says to your face: "I Don't want you here anymore" you are cut, for want a better term. It hurts so bad. The last Fur Meet, when I walked in the door, I went upstairs to where I thought Mel was. Scratched on the door, with the intention of wanting a hug from the girl I loved. Door didn't open, cause Jack wouldn't open it. She came down 20mins later, completely dressed. Sigh of relief was released.
Last night I was at work, and I spent almost 2hours out of a 4hr shift on the phone. I leaned a few things, and some other things will happen. O yeah, at the Fur Meet I learned that not many people like me because I am an outsider. Let me make one thing purrfectly clear (yes I spelt that deliberately) - I am
NOT like old outsiders where I am here to cause bullshit - I'm only interacting with you all for fun. I felt welcomed by a few of you, and I hope that is enough to be welcomed into the society properly.
A few side things about this:
- I wanted no more secrets between Mel and I when I came back from Melbourne. I wanted to know everything she had done/planning to do. She failed to uphold this
- I wanted to put a boundary on interactions with other guys/girls. i said I would never touch another girl again. I asked that Mel not do anything intimate with another guy.
- I wanted her to be happy.
Also, I wanted Mel to be the one. I thought we would grow old, I would propose, have kids, I planned it all. I was ready to commit permanently, and she shut me down.
O yeah, there was a part a missed. Last Thursday I was driving down to freo. My Dad asked me, Cameron, why are you driving to Freo? I told him I was trying to save the girl I loved, and also that I wanted to hear from Mel's mouth that she didn't love me. Both phailed.
For those who have got to this point, I thank you for reading this. This is the complete story from my angle. Feel free to leave a comment I guess. Cameron out.
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