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Furry clips

2008-01-12T01:50:08Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYSbUOoq4Vg

Nina Simone: Just my baby cares for me.

Ransacked!

2007-12-12T11:26:21Z

So last night our house got ransacked. Probably by some fucking coons from some fucked up neighborhood.

Entire house got completely trashed; the alarm was ripped out of its casing and and the sensors were destroyed. Mum stayed home today to clean up her room alone, it took her 4 hours. Hope mine doesn't take that long.

In all, we have discovered that several pieces of jewlery were missing (from both mum and cass), and I lost 1 condom and a 3pack of Bundi Ginger Beer. Cmon... stealing a bloke's condom? how low >_>

Fucking c*nts

-Edit-
cool, only took me 3 hours.
sleep ftw

Awesome

2007-11-07T14:28:57Z

Just thought I'd put this in...

GUITAR HERO 3 IS THE PWNZ0R

kthx

requesting advice...

2007-10-05T15:31:47Z

sigh... me gots a problem. There's this chick I know, who I've known for about 4 years now... know her really well, and want to go out with her but she has basically told me she doesn't want to go out with me. That's fine, but we constantly flirt with one another and quite frankly it's driving me up the wall.

I'm seeing a movie with her on tuesday, then prolly go for lunch - <3 my boss he gave me the day off cause I wanted to chase a girl lmao. Last time we saw a movie she had a cold the day before and refused to do anything cause she didnt want to spread it... and the time before that she was quite willing to let me touch her.

i dunno... i want to try something on tuesday but at the same time i dont... i know deep down she'll expect me to cause im that sort of guy but should i actually go through with it... i so badly want to cause she is imo one of (if not the) most awesome chicks i know... she's said no relationship but what about a fling... that never hurt anyone xD

so... any advice for those who have something decent to say?

Fresh Start

2007-09-09T15:29:35Z

Well , it's taken me 4 years, but I've finally chosen a career path. My mates have been working at this bakery and are becoming apprentice bakers, and I decided to join them in their conquest of the baking world (lol). I had my first shift today, after a nice party lasting the weekend (to which only a few of my high school mates and a few others showed up to... not a lot upset but was slightly). 9am - 7:30pm it lasted, and i had a 10minute break at 2:30. It was seriously the best fun I've ever had at work - and it went so fast.

I started doing spraying, which is basically spraying the pans with oil which would be needed later on. I must have done at least 200+ trays in an hour, which was fast.. apparently lol. Then spent the next 1.5hrs on doughnuts for McDonalds, my God those things piss me off - not so much hard its just tedious. Then made garlic bread for QANTAS (yes, the big fucking airline company), and then dinner rolls for the same company =D. I spent an hour inside a -18degree C freezer; Fennec I know how you feel now =P.

Before I knew it the day had gone, felt like I was only there a couple of hours but my body was dying at 7 - kept saying "no more work I've done enough" but the brain wanted to keep going. Guess the money prospect was good enough lol. Getting a lovely 14bucks an hour before 6pm, then 18.50 afterwards. I had this thing called an "Open Italian Pie", esentially just a pie shell with PASTA AND MEAT SAUCE (omg /orgasms @ combination) which was teh pwnzor.

Well that's about it for this update, hope everyone is doing well and yeah

cya next time
Cameron

Bali!!

2007-08-28T12:51:39Z

ok guys here you go - plenteh pics from Bali!

the plane ride over
http://img391.imageshack.us/img391/2572/picture008iw1.jpg

the gruelling hair straightening process
http://img206.imageshack.us/img206/9251/picture018zg7.jpg

me in all my sarong glory - cbf rotating the image lol
http://img177.imageshack.us/img177/3068/picture095yt0.jpg

the new lazic family =D
http://img509.imageshack.us/img509/844/picture103zv0.jpg

OMG WTF BRAIDS????
http://img411.imageshack.us/img411/9481/picture200rk1.jpg

me and cass, on the way to the cruise
http://img441.imageshack.us/img441/1622/picture203gs9.jpg

awwwwwwwww - dad and ratna (new mum =D)
http://img354.imageshack.us/img354/733/picture224hn9.jpg

maccas brekkie - YES THAT IS RICE WTF
http://img354.imageshack.us/img354/9427/picture290dm6.jpg

Bali!!

2007-08-21T22:36:42Z

So on thursday afternoon sometime I'm flying out to Bali for 5 days. I have to get to the airport 3 FUCKING HOURS BEFORE the plane departs.... thank you bullshit airline rules. O well, get to have a few drinks in the cafe beforehand with Cass and Mum so it's all good.

Saturday Dad's getting married to this very lovely Balianese woman, and I'm the Best Man along with his best mate Tim. Feel so special lol. So special.... yes I get to wear a sorong - DW I'll post pics of me wearing it when I get back lmao.

The I come back Tuesday arvo sometime, think it's about 4pm I can get out of the airport so yay. Might have braids in (ZOMG BRAIDS??!?!?!!!!) so that should be fun - walking around Freo and Perth International Airport with braids in... am I asking for a beating? xD.

Count is now 32hours =D

Music

2007-07-31T07:23:23Z

If there is anyone out there who shares an interest in Bands such as:
Metallica
Motorhead
Pantera
Queens of the Stone Age

other bands such as this kind of metal/rock

.... THEN YOU WILL BE PLEASED TO KNOW

THAT "HELLYEAH" IS THE CURRENT ALBUM FOR YOU

I'm seriously in love with this album atm... its the only one to truely test out my surround sound at home and it kicks ass.

BORED

2007-07-27T15:40:03Z

IM BORED

BORED

VERY FUCKING BORED

>=0

MapleStory!

2007-07-21T18:29:58Z

DOES ANYBODY OUT THERE PLAY THIS GAME?!?!?!?!?!??!?!

www.mapleglobal.com

(use IE pl0x, FireFox has a spaz over this)

K for kilojibble!

2007-07-17T17:06:58Z

As Flye has given me this letter, Here is a list of 10 songs, that I listen to, beginning with the letter "K".

1. "Knock on Wood" - Aimi Stewart
2. "Kung Fu Fighting" - Carl Douglas
3. "Kissing the Shadows" - Children of Bodom
4. "Kenji" - Fort Minor
5. "Karma" - Opeth
6. "Kuss Mich" - Rammstein (Translated to "Kiss Me")
7. "Kill Your Idols" - Static X
8. "Kill Rock and Roll" - System of a Down
9. "Keine Lust" - Rammstein (Translated to "Don't Feel Like It")
10. "Kids in America" - Kim Wilde

OMG FLYE THAT TOOK FOREVER >.<

PEOPLE! JOIN IN THE FUN

Teh Weekend

2007-07-08T08:09:03Z

Ahh... the joys of the weekend. Friday night went to work, was pretty good actually, despite the fact my BOSS fell asleep for 2hrs. Waking him was fun when we closed at 11 - just screamed at him and walked out. Contemplated putting the alarm on and waiting for him to wake at like 3am and set it off. Would have been hilarious.

Left work round 11, got to Nathan's just before 12. Downed both my CC glass stubbies in under 25mins which was fun.. but no more alchahol so I was sad. Left early with Nik who got really badly sick; she managed to last a whole 1.5hrs before calling the ambos which was pretty good I thought for someone who could barely stand when she left. Finally fell asleep around 4am... Thanks to those lovely bundles of joy called cats lol. Gotta love em :D

Worked for the first time 2 jobs in the one day on saturday... thank god I had 1.25L of coke otherwise I would have failed. Went the whole day without eating anything which was surprising... to say the least. Went paintballing at 3, got completely ownd in a game of capture the flag - I decided with 20seconds left I'd make a break for the flag.. but unfortunately mis-counted the amount of guys on the other team and consequently was raped by about 9 or 10 paintballs - 4 of which did NOT EXPLODE! OUCH!

Saturday night went to my mates place where we discussed my new compy (bout fucking time it's getting built lol) and drank AUSTRALIAN VODKA (yes I said AUSTRALIAN) and lemon squash. Was lovely. stayed up till 5am watching American Dad season 3 and drinking. Lovely =D. I'm so looking forward to this new comp - It's costing me like a grand for something worth (stock price) 2k at least so yay :D.

Now I'm sitting in my room, alone, bored, working out what I'm going to do for the next week. Tomorrow morning going into freo to see an old friend - going to go cloudwatching (I'm praying the grass isn't wet lol). Should go for a shower.... Maybe eat something. Loved losing all that weight I feel so good now.

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Life status is really fucked up atm. I'm so confused as to what I want to do with all aspects; school, work, social, life after tafe, love, friends, sport (I quit bowling... what was I thinking)...

I got a new job the other day. I'll now be employed at Pizza Hut (well... not 100% sure yet but I'm pretty sure. I have shifts so it stands to reason I do). Made some dough (OMG SO FUN) and cleaned (only a bit >_>). I think I can finally quit my job at Kelmscott Tenpin Bowl; sacrificing shit bosses, hours, work conditions, for the exact opposite. HMMM tough choice there.

Tafe is shitting me up the wall. Fucking I'm 1.5hrs away from it, and I have early starts at 8:30am. Thats a 6:30-7am on the train, 5:30-6am wake up. I can't keep doing this for much longer. I'm already on the brink of destruction myself. The workload is fine, It's just the location. I went to freo tafe for a fresh start. High School was good, but all my mates went to Uni (I'm the only one who did TEE and went to tafe... i r baka). The comps are shit too, its so frustrating trying to use Macromedia Flash and Dreamweaver and Adobe Photoshop at the same time. I mean cmon my lappy overheats and can still do all that without lagging.

I have no idea what I'm going to do when I leave this course... might take a Massuse course (I've been told I'm very good with my hands). Dunno if I'll persue a career in it though - I'd keep it as a special thing for my lady.

Speaking of my lady... I'm still fucked up about Mel. She's not even my lady anymore, but it's so fucking frustrating... I still have so many feelings for her and she doesn't want to reflect them. Thursday evening I completely broke down on her shoulders and told her straight up that I'm lost without her. It was the hardest I had ever cried about anything. I know I should just let go... but it's so hard and I've given up trying to now... it's taken 5 weeks to finally break me and I can't hold my feelings back anymore. I think I should get vixen's therapist's number.... I need therapy.

It's good to know I still have friends though I guess. They help me get through everything.. even if I don't want to listen to what they have to say I still take it all in and value their opinion. I love my friends to pieces... not the love a relationship brings, but love as in never want to be without them.

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I got asked a question a while ago. It was by a friend of mine. She is 16, and EXTREMELY mature for her age. The question was this:
"can u honsetly say u like love".

It took me all of 10seconds to come up with an answer. It was this:
yes. with love comes companionship. with love comes... well love. someone who is always there for you, someone to goto when you're feeling sad. It's something normal friends cannot fill the role of. with love comes family, with love comes a deeper friendship. Not like a best friend, or a mate. It's something deeper.

You know... It's hard to say this. But I still stand by what I said. Despite what others may say, or what I feel. I hate being alone. It's the worst feeling in the world. And I sit here, writing this piece, alone.

Movies

2007-06-24T06:38:44Z

Well today was fun. I spent it watching Bali movies to make sure they all worked. Certainly beats writing the website I have to do for next week :D

Tonsilitis

2007-06-13T06:11:10Z

Great... just to top off my perfect health, I now have tonsilitis. Apparently if i had let it go another day i would need them removed or be fed by this tube thing for a week.... very disgusting >_>

Stitches come out on friday... isnt that going to be fun.. /roll eyes.

Well, I'm fucked

2007-06-03T15:44:59Z

Work on friday night, was a typical night with tons of people.
First time in 2 years, I got injured.

Tore open my left bicep, 7 stitches in it for at least 10 days.
When i get pics ill post em up here for you all to see :D

-=EDIT=-

Here they are as promised! =D

http://img518.imageshack.us/img518/298/img041ip0.jpg

http://img360.imageshack.us/img360/1541/img040fr4.jpg

Monday Night

2007-05-29T04:02:31Z

So last night I took the night off work, went up and saw my illustrious mate Vixen.

Very Fucking cold it was sitting outside her front door.... why she wouldn't go for a smoke inside I'll never know but yeah lol almost froze my nuts off xD.

Spent a few hours there, just chilling. Something I haven't done in a long time with a chick it felt really good to just relax. Talked about some shit on my mind, and on hers.. looking forward to the future now I am :D

Alpha came in at like 10ish.. might have been a little after. Good to see she doesn't hate me anymore so it's all good (Y) [er... msn emote for thumbs up]. Might be the only lesbian chick I know but she pwns. Told her about my house and its 2 pool tables... her eyes lit up light twin Christmas trees lmao.

Was discussing a possible get together at my place... Ping Pong, Game consoles, Pool, Net gaming... I have everything lol. Only catch is don't think Mum would like it if 20odd people suddenly rocked up so I'll keep my location discrete. But if you're interested in coming over for a bit of socialising let me know, which I more than doubt none of you will turn down... That and the fact that I live in Armadale lol.

Ooo, Dad's giving me moneys for a car so should have one of my own in the next week or two. Gonna be so cool I can finally drive in MY OWN FUCKING VEHICLE rather than borrowing Mum's... x__x. Any suggestions on cars for under $1,000? :P lol. Already got the colour scheme figured out; black/dark blue with a contrasting interior colour, was thinking white but its a bitch to keep clean lol.

Cam Out

Last Night

2007-05-27T05:14:50Z

Mel fucked Kanga.

She told Nathan she wouldn't.

She lied.

Seriously.

The Whole Story

2007-05-27T01:52:49Z

Ok. I was told to start from the beginning. I will. Please note that this is long, and if you leave a comment do not bullshit me.

First Wednesday in February. It's day 3 of Tafe, and I first come into contact with Mel. First impression was like any guys when he sees a new chick; "finally, someone I can flirt with :D". She comes over to us (those who were playing Worms: Armageddon), sits down and we're acting all chummy. Gamers tend to conglomerate around a common spot if there is a game on lol. We go back up to class, and I get told about a happening on the weekend. Was a movie (Tenacious D and The Pick of Destiny) and a few hours at a LAN centre (which is what me and my High School mates used to do). invite a few people, Mel is the only one to accept.

Friday night. We go to the movies, I asked to borrow the car from mum seeing as I was trying to impress Mel at this point (yeah, I have weird ways of interacting with chicks I would have liked to date). We go to the movie, and at some points in the movie where it was deemed appropriate I would lean my hand on hers (as you do xP). Movie was fucking awesome, and the LAN centre was even better. I can't play Counter Strike. Don't have the response time to play FPS; so each I died I would touch Mel; either through playful punch or other means. Each time she died I would give her a hug. Then we played DotA (Defence of the Ancients, look it up if you would like to know more) - standard RTS game, which Mel had never played before. Was cool cause I got some more friendly hugging and stuff out of it. After it ended, we went outside in the parking lot, stood about 3metres from each other before we said goodnight. She gave me a hug I will never forget - it showed friendship and caring. Went home, and we talked about random shit on msn that night. I guess this was the turning point in a mere liking towards her, but a want to go out with her properly.

The next two weeks at Tafe was pretty cool. Got to be better friends with Mel and a few other people. Get a one night job offer at Adventure World, for both me and Mel. It worked out perfectly cause my mate was holding his 18th afterwards, so of course Mel and I went to both. This was the 22nd of February now. I will remember this weekend for all time. After the job finished, went to my mates and got drunk. First time ever. Was so happy :D. Around 6pm we left for my place, got through the front door and went into my bedroom. i put on a movie and we watched it together (can't remember this one). Put another movie on, Open Season (the animated movie about a bear and a deer). I managed to pull Mel down to lie next to me, and I kissed her lightly on her neck. She didn't say stop, but she enjoyed it so much I had to do it again. And again. Slowly working my way down her body until I was kissing and touching her torso and back. Slowly I removed her 3 shirts, bra, pants, and underwear. All the while I was thinking, holy shit I can't believe I'm doing this, because I knew she had a boyfriend. But I kept going because she didn't say stop and I didn't want to. 1.5hrs after that kiss, we lay back on the bed after sex. It was ownage. First sex in 4years and I lasted like 20mins. Dunno how that compares to other people but I think it's pretty long. All of a sudden the door starts getting bashed on - Mel's mum called to find out where she was. She was "drunk" (best excuse ever) and was going to sleep at my house. it took 60seconds to put clothes on to open the door x__x lol. After that phone call, we did it again. Got as bed in, and I decided to crash on that. Mel rolled down from my King single and slept with me. In the morning, we did it twice more, showered together, and she went home around 3pm-ish.

And so began our fucking. We did it wherever we could - best spot was probably at Tafe itself, in the disabled toilets (ahh, some good times in that room let me tell you). Cold tiles on the wall means leaning against them was a bad thing, but it was fun all the same.

3 weeks later, on the 16th of March, I see Mel being walked to Tafe by her boyfriend. Omg I was so jealous of him right then. I wanted to be the one who would do that - and I told her in class that day. That weekend she spent with Glenn (her boyfriend at the time), and I spoke to her on Sunday and she said she broke up with him; the love ran out between her and him. Within 10mins of her telling me this, we were going out. She had no regret at the time for what she had done. We consequently spent the next 9days in each others company, as I was going away for 2 weeks to Melbourne for my final President Shield (President Shield is the top level bowling competetion in Australia available to Juniors).

While I was in Melbourne, I set myself a rule. No sex. In my eyes Sex was the cheating act - anything else went. Consequently, I got a bit fresh with a few chicks - felt two dirrenet sets of tits while I was over there. My God they were nice tits, not as good as Mel's, but still ownage. Ahh, how easily I could have gone out with one or more of them - but I stayed true to Mel. I came back mid-April, can't remember the exact date, but it was a Sunday night. I saw Mel in the airport, and she looked hollow. Like all life had been extinguished from her. I didn't take notice of it at the time, I thought it was just tiredness. Spent a lot of time together in the next 2 weeks, saw movies, ate lunch, slept in each others beds, studied, she even came to bowling and watched me do the thing that had made my livelihood for the last 5 years.

On the 2nd or 3rd of May, Mel learned about the Perth Furries. She was so happy - apparently she had been looking for quite some time for this community. That Saturday was a thing called a "Fur Meet", and I was working. I wanted to go with her but I didn't cause it was out of the way by heaps >_>. Mel came over on Sunday after the meet - she looked troubled. Didn't go into it why. She stayed Sunday night, and left around 6:20pm Monday night cause I had work. I came home from work, and she told me: "I sorta hooked up at the Meet". I took little notice of it because that's what happens at parties. 2:30am Tuesday morning, I still hadn't slept, Curiosity got the better of me. I went through the MSN saved convos on my computer, and I discovered something which shocked me to the core. It was a complete description about the event between her and Jack (sorry I used your name but I think everyone knows). The exact contents of this conversation will stay private between Me, Mel, and the person who she told, but know that everything was done between her and Jack. Oral sex, Normal sex, Pashing, everything. I wrote a letter to Mel, which asked one simple question: Do You Love Me? I never got an answer. The letter included snippets from this conversation, as well as the one where she told me she hooked up.

Tuesday, 8th May. I was a cold mother fucker that morning. I showed nothing towards Mel, absolutely nothing. I did one thing: loaded the letter on the computer, watched her start reading it, and walked out. i didn't know what I would have done. She tried to give me a hug, and I shut her down. For the next 2 weeks we talked. And talked. And sexed and talked. I couldn't trust her anymore at Fur Meets, so i went with her. That weekend, on Saturday night, was so cool. I walked in, and everyone I met was so friendly at someone new. Don't think Bast took a shine to me cause I was a smart-ass but thats who I am - Bast you really are an awesome guy hey. As long as I was in eye-range of Mel I was happy - but I went outside and told people why I was there - those people were Farf, Nathan, Vixen, and Raf. Mel overheard me boycotting her, and we spent that night driving home with me spilling out my thoughts of her flirting with guys. When we got back to her place, spend 15mins in the car hugging. Went upstairs to her place and slept together - she curled up in my arms. Since then, we have been on the rocks. It's been so stressing mentally - I think I lost 5kgs from not eating right. Felt good losing weight though xD.

Mel couldn't control her flirting with other guys. Each time she signed on MSN, got a phone message, or anything such as, she would flirt. And talk about sex. And flirt more. It sickened me. Watching your own girlfriend flirting and talking about sex with other guys WHILE IN A RELATIONSHIP is the WORST THING A GIRL CAN DO TO A GUY ASIDE FROM CHEATING. Next Fur meet, it became apparent that Mel didn't want me there. This was 100% confirmed at the last Fur Meet, when she said it to my face. When someone you love with all your heart says to your face: "I Don't want you here anymore" you are cut, for want a better term. It hurts so bad. The last Fur Meet, when I walked in the door, I went upstairs to where I thought Mel was. Scratched on the door, with the intention of wanting a hug from the girl I loved. Door didn't open, cause Jack wouldn't open it. She came down 20mins later, completely dressed. Sigh of relief was released.

Last night I was at work, and I spent almost 2hours out of a 4hr shift on the phone. I leaned a few things, and some other things will happen. O yeah, at the Fur Meet I learned that not many people like me because I am an outsider. Let me make one thing purrfectly clear (yes I spelt that deliberately) - I am NOT like old outsiders where I am here to cause bullshit - I'm only interacting with you all for fun. I felt welcomed by a few of you, and I hope that is enough to be welcomed into the society properly.

A few side things about this:
- I wanted no more secrets between Mel and I when I came back from Melbourne. I wanted to know everything she had done/planning to do. She failed to uphold this
- I wanted to put a boundary on interactions with other guys/girls. i said I would never touch another girl again. I asked that Mel not do anything intimate with another guy.
- I wanted her to be happy.

Also, I wanted Mel to be the one. I thought we would grow old, I would propose, have kids, I planned it all. I was ready to commit permanently, and she shut me down.

O yeah, there was a part a missed. Last Thursday I was driving down to freo. My Dad asked me, Cameron, why are you driving to Freo? I told him I was trying to save the girl I loved, and also that I wanted to hear from Mel's mouth that she didn't love me. Both phailed.

For those who have got to this point, I thank you for reading this. This is the complete story from my angle. Feel free to leave a comment I guess. Cameron out.

Rejected

2007-05-26T09:38:05Z

Fur Meet last night. Was awesome fun, got drunk and went bowling this afternoon with 20minutes of sleep under my belt. After "waking up" of sorts, I learn that I'm not loved as I once thought. The Fur community hate me. This saddens me, because I thought they were my friends. Now, whenever I come into contact with any Fur, its going to feel like a worm on a line, just waiting and waiting until the final straw and something else happens.

I don't know what to do. The main reason I'm hated is because of fucking previous experiences with non-furs and it pisses me off. I'm not like the regular person who just walks in on something; I realise that the bond in this group is very tight and they welcome people of their own kind. It was once said to me, that: "Being a Furr is not something you can become. It is who you are". As far as I can see, its about sex. But is there something deeper. Something that goes beyond the feeling of friendship that binds people together. is it an idea, a theory, what is it that makes a bunch of people conglomerate at an area once a week to do basically what normal people do.

I want to know what it is that makes these people seem so strong. I thought they accepted me, and yet I cannot help but feel that I am just the next one to be removed, like shit from a shoe.

I hope someone comments on this. Maybe there is some Fur out there who still likes me, because one of the reasons why I go to meets has just turned her back on me...

As a side note. I was supposed to get drunk with a certain Vixen character. When she disappeared, I could not help but feel saddened. The one person who truly wanted me there abandoned me. Thanks a lot

Music to get over heartache

2007-05-23T14:14:18Z

Just a few songs which have got me through a very tough day.

Given Up
- Linkin Park

No More Sorrow
- Linkin Park

(Those smart one's will look at this and realise that they are not only song names lol)

Live Journal

2007-05-23T13:57:18Z

ffs

Posting is a reeeeeal bitch lol forgive any of my double postings

Day 1

2007-05-23T13:31:20Z

Ok so today I broke up with my girlfriend. It's difficult to write this down cause I'll have to look at it later but I have to write it.
So here's how it all began...

Mid April I went to Melbourne for my final State Junior Bowling Championships. Went over, had a good time, did a few things I now regret, but main thing was I had fun. Came back to Perth, high as a kite. Unfortunately, my girlfriend didn't seem too keen on what I had got up to, but I didn't really take a lot of notice because I told her everything. Felt it was ok... apparently it wasn't.

So she's a member of this community called FurAffinity, I'm sure anyone who reads this will know exactly what it is and probably be a member of it themselves. One innocent Friday night, I head out to work, and my girlfriend attends this thing called a "meet", sort of a party but more a gathering of people who enjoy the same things and are called "Furrs" (people who belong to FurAffinity). So I guess one thing lead to another and.. she.. well... cheated on me. I accepted that she did being the kind of girl that she is; as she is a little bit of flirt... ah who am I kidding a LOT of a flirt. Then, curiosity got the better of me and I read an msn convo she had stored on my computer..... big mistake. The whole thing was blown out of proportion, and from then on it was downhill.

2 weeks later, I ask to her face "Do you love me anymore." She said, imo cold-heartedly, "No". Just like that. She can push away 2 months of love, care, and respect.

As one would do, I had my cry (yeah, I'll admit that), and spent the day with some really good friends which I will hold very close to me. Then I went back to bowling, 3 game series was 161, 189, 206. Took me the first game to get over my day lol.

So that's it. I'm forever hopeful she will come back to me and grant me a second chance at trying to be her boyfriend again, but I don't think it will happen. I still love her very much, and it's going to take a long time to get over her.

O well, still got the Furr meets to look forward to I guess - Vixen I'm gonna drink you under the table :P

After writing this, I feel like I have gotten a huge weight off my chest. Least I have written everything down now... probably gonna keep doing this it's really refreshing.

Peace out everyone.
Cameron